Tyler B in action

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momentum of life

不能轉
惟慢走
奈何能吊多久

工作與我

Having a look at my old blog post, the time when I was totally determined to find a job was some time in April. Following my eager determination was months of failure and desperation. The first interview failure was definitely tough, but then subsequent failures and rejections became kind of normal for me.

Mixed emotions. Even when I finally got this petermac job I'm doing now, it took my mind a while to settle. Would I be better off if I got the Telstra job? What about the Origin job? At one point I thought the Business Intelligence positions offered by Telstra/Origin and other listed companies would be the perfect start for me. I realized later that I was just too ignorant and idealistic -- only half of my profile fits the field of BI, and my desire and dream can never count. I failed the job interviews, but I have never regretted that I tried; failure toughens people up, making me more emotionless, more invulnerable, teaching me how to do better in later interviews.

If business intelligence was my "dream job" before, then what am I doing in petermac now? Working as a bioinformatician now, have I given up or forgotten about my dream? No No No. Dreams evolve, what happened before was just a process, where i am now is where i am supposed to be, my destiny. If I am to do a comparison now, definitely the petermac job is far more perfect than the others in all aspects -- honourability, appreciation of my qualification, relatively smooth ride to a good future, and of course, salary.

Okay, my job is great, my previous career dream about business intelligence was crap. What about my other dreams, the other parts of me? Commiting to a job doesn't just take away my other career dreams, it seems to be sucking the whole me into it, little of myself is left on the earth. Right, i only work 8 hrs a day and there is supposed to be a good work/life balance. But why do I not feel like myself anymore! I used to think about how to play better warcraft, how to make myself a billionaire with zero capital, how to think of nothing, and etc, but now I'm not. Am I adopting? Or am I disappearing?

Promise VS Commitment

Promise = 諾言
Commitment = 承諾

中文上的解釋，我不懂分別。 英文的解釋好像比較容易理解。

Promises can be made as long as you can speak.
Commitments are hard facts, that are demonstrated by actions.

Promises can be easily broken. Commitments can fail too, but at least they make you closer to your goal.

So, I guess one step to achieve your goal is to TURN A PROMISE INTO A COMMITMENT.

How? Make some bold moves that force you to do something.


To learn swim, jump into the sea. (DEADLY)

To finish my thesis, find a job. (DEADLINE)

To live happily ever after with your loved one, pay deposit for your wedding dinner. (DEADLINE)

Smelling DEATH is the push, and is what makes you commit.

休息

休息 - 你做得到嗎？

忙碌完一輪，累了，你可能會聽音樂、飲吓茶、同人吹吹水、行吓街、又或者打吓機。 但這些都不等於休息。 做這些東西的同時，你的身體沒有休息，你的思想同樣沒有休息。

休息等於什麼都不做、什麼都不想。你又做得到嗎？

要思想靜止，大家都知道好難，如果唔係都唔會有咁多打坐修行班。

要行動靜止什麼都不做，你可願意嗎？ 我相信很多人都會同我一樣，揪唔到時間出來乜都唔做，覺得有很多事情比坐响到十分鐘乜都唔做更加有價值更加有趣。

在此奉勸大家 ( 包括我自己 ) ：唔諗唔郁廿分鐘，做人就會好輕鬆。 不做不想在這繁忙的社會裡是很有價值的。

Do you care?

Do you care about something, but you just can't help it? Maybe you just don't care about it enough.

If you care, then you see opportunities. If you care, then you would see other ways of achieving it. If you care enough, then at least you would think there ought to be a better solution.

Otherwise, it's all excuses for your careless.

In America's Next Top Model you always hear the girls say "only if you want it bad enough". To me, it is somewhat true.

So.. careless or excuses?